Sunday, May 27, 2007

Finally, i finished "PS. I Love U"
Yesterday, i brought another two Novels agian.
I guess, i am i kind of falling in love with reading.
The day before yesterday,i finished my oral exam. However, i have to take another one on next Sat.
It is yesterday that i realized the seriousness of the exam.
I paid 450RMB for taking the exam. so if i failed, my money will be watered away.
My next exam will be in Sep. in ShangHai.^_^ It is a very difficult one. And i don't want to fly to shanghai only for taking that exam. So, i will make a trip there and make the exam like something "drop by"
Yesterday i read a novel. It says " The most important thing in life is to learn how to give out love, and to let it come in. Love is the only rational act~"
Love is the only rational act~`
Wow~~
Anyway, the next week i will fight for the 450RMB.haha~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Thursday, May 24, 2007

If I want to pass the DAF, I need to attend at least 2000 hours German classes.
That is the basic requirement that I have to follow if I want to get further study in Germany.
Honestly speaking, I get nowhere.
I even don’t which major I can choose. My classmate told me that some Chinese went there to study Chinese, which was taught by a German.
Speechless~
Maybe I will carry on my initial plan, studying language there for a while.
I don’t want to be away with that guy for a long time. I know since I met him, my life changed a lot. Today when I was ill, he brought me a cake, South Korean food and lots of snack that I love. I was deadly touched. A voice from my inner heart told me that I super really want to marry him. ^_^
Recently, I am reading a novel “PS. I love you”
I saw a desperately love in the novel. I never thought that another country’s love story could be like this. Actually, there should no boundary exist in mysterious love—No country boundary, no class boundary~~
I am going back to read again. ^_^

Tuesday, May 22, 2007

Mark Twain said “a gift person can master English in 30 hour; French in 30 days; and German in 30 year.”
Nonsense~
Anyway, we should not blame him. As far as I know he was too old to learn German at that time.
I am going to matser German before I am 25 years old.
Haha~
I am a kind of extraordinary diligent in German.
I write 5 sentence every day last week; 6 this week; 7 next week.
Chris said that most of the sentences that I made are not in right order.
It is funny that I write English in the way of Chinese, and write German in the way of English.
Logically speaking, my German writing is still in the way of Chinese. The difference between English is that NO ONE could understand my German through the intermediary of English.
Chinese-English
Chinese-English-German
It is cloudy today and my mood is the same as the weather.
The weather makes my feeling boom like the flower in the spring. I know it is a bad rhetoric. ^_^
I am quite moody those days.
First I broke up with Tommy. Shir told me that what he said was for my good. Still I can’t forget what he said of me. I blocked and delete him from my msn contract. So did Tommy (Later Shir told me) Just don’t understand why sometimes things change so fast that we can’t catch up our breath to get used to them.
Ioan said Chinese don’t like change. As lots of Chinese in abroad they still keep their own life styles. One thing that we can’t deny that life styles in America or Europe are more complicated. In our points of view, they are things like bad or unhealthy life styles. Not everyone would like to be bad.
Yesterday, Ioan told me that we would miss me after he went back to France. Suddenly, I just didn’t know how to react. I just felt so weird when said that “He would miss you” eyes to eyes. I know it is easy to say not face to face. Don’t know when we will meet again next time. I told him maybe when he is 80, and then I will be 65.
When I said maybe I would try to meet him again before he is 40, as I didn’t want to see he became an old man, he asked why I always judged by their appearance, age, or****
Maybe he right, I am a mean girl.
But, how comes why most guys like beautiful girls?
Haha
Who knows?
Honestly speaking, I changed a lot during those three years. I become a kind of person who loves myself more than another else in this world.
Men are very cruel creatures in this world; they can turn off their faces very easily. Ha Ha
I might be a little over-react
I know some men are love-victims.
One thing that we can be sure is that, whatever happens to each other in aspect of love, it is interaction.
It is both sides’ choice.
No one is wrong and should blame anyone.

Sunday, May 20, 2007

Finally, I found a place to put my post.
The power of the Yoga is so amazing.
I did sleep extremely well last night.
I guess, I am return to normal again those days except I am a kind of missing home.
Yesterday I read something about Ireland. I got an impulse of going there for traveling.
Ha ^_^
Girls are so changeable.
How time flies. Ioan will be leaving in one week. I still fell like I just knowing him.
Honestly speaking, I hate that kind of being apart from friend, especially from whom I don’t when we will meet again next time. Even maybe NEVER.
Anyway, I guess I get lots of good memories from him. Maybe I should feel happy that he only stays here for one month, which makes this memory even more precious.
Here are some people walked into my life, after some time, then disappeared without any reasons. Then after a period, they showed up again, like nothing happen.
I don’t like them.
Here are some people who were very kind to me at the beginning, then their kindness faded as time passed by. They made me in panic as I didn’t know what on earth wrong I had done.
I don’t like them, either.
Both of those kinds of people are not my friends. Mom always teaches me that I should be generous and I should have a big heart to embrace the world.
I can’t do that, at least right now.
Maybe one day I will forgive them, but in the condition that they are no longer on my friend list. I will consider them as every stranger on the street, whom I will give a hand if it is possible.
PS: limited to my english level, I might make lots of mistakes. What is worse, I may make the meaning go different direction of my point. ^_^
An idea, anyone who will marry me will be the most unlucky guy in this world, hit my mind abruptly. How comes?
I like shopping.
I am lazy.
I can’t do cooking and housework.
I like playing.
I guess no man in this world would be willing to marry this kind of woman.
Today I brought some skin care cosmetic. My old female cousin told me that every girl has to learn how to take care of herself. She is pretty right. Right now, I feel a kind of regretful that I didn’t take care of my skin before. I always feel free to eat everything I like. That is more, I stay up a lot. I didn’t realize seriousness until I found it was a kind of late. I didn’t listen to Mom when she asked me to take care of my skin. Mom is right. I am already 20 now and I should be very careful in every aspect of my life.
I was a kind of down few days ago. Then I just let it be. I didn’t intend to study or force myself to do anything. This week I find I am back, back to the normal. Sometime, I guess I care too much of others’ opinion on me which makes me lose myself.
As a result of it, my life is out of control and I am not myself.
Right now, I learn that it is only yourself know you very well and others are only bystanders. They make a conclusion of you with the limited knowledge that they know about you. Even someone who have 10 years friendship with you, still don’t know you well. As there is always a voice from your inside which makes you completely different from the person you are right now.