Something more in Life

Still think that there is something more in my life that i should go for...

I told my cousin that i was desperatedly missing those friends that i have made in TJ, she said

that i should give up this stupid "idea", cause someday when they have their own families, they

will forget you. I replied that i didn't care whether they miss me or not, i just missed them. That

is all.

in the following one year, i am gonna work hard, i will prove to my parents that their daughter

has the ability to live alone in Germany.

Maybe i am a bitch that i want to give up the relatively superior life here.

Whatever...

finally, i came here agian. ^^
maybe that is because more and more people know my another english blog, including someone, to whom i don't want them to know.
kinda tired
meanwhile i am deadly missing TianJin.
sometimes i don't know why i hated this city so much but i miss it so so when i left
maybe i still have not learned how to cherish things( those i have already got)
right now, i miss B. and my friends in TJ
and for B. he is very specially for me. My only foreign brother for me.
Actually, after leaving TJ, i knew deeply that i won't be so near to someone any longer.
I need to learn to grow up, which helps me faster to adjust to the real society.
wenzhou is a very beautiful city, the job i have right now may lead me to lots of $
but i still think, that is not what i really want.
there are something more... Germany
I have been planning it for such long time. and i don't want to give it up.
though lots of people say that i have already got what others maybe spend their rest life to fight for and should stay here, beginning to "enjoy" life
for me, that is not enough
i still need something more...
I want to pursuit my dream....