All this year, it is about Germany.
I am going to put an end to this "Germany Stuff" by the end of this year.
So i am going to take APS in Beijing.
This is the moment that i have been waiting for one year.
I was supposed to do that last year.But...
Sometimes, i think that i am born a business person. Maybe, if i keep on fighting here, i will have a successful career in my life at young age.
However, it seems that i want something more in life.
Honestly, there are many deep night that i was scared.
I was scared to face my life going to be in Germany
I was scared of being alone.
I know that i am good at something which i still not know yet, which i am gonna find out.
Will I be finally in German as I am expecting right now? I am not sure, but i am gonna fight very hard for it.
All i have known right now is that i want to make the miracle to be happened.
Actually, my feeling right now is very complicated, which i can n't tell exactly.
hmm, actually i know that my English Level is going down every day. Anyway i will try to write a little bit everyday.
hmmmm
Come on, Qiongyao. It is time for you to fight for yourself.

Somthing about life recently,

I am preparing for going to Germany right now.

I have sent my materials to APS.

I am doing research for schools

Never in life feel I so ready for this...

I got my parents' permission, which makes me very happy.

For this moment, i have been waiting for nearly one year.

Right now, everything is going to be ready.

Mom wants me to be a smart girl, she wants me to learn more about this world.

All i am doing right now are what i had been dreaming to do one years ago.

I am gonna do it beautifully, confidently and perfectly.

Still keep on my dream.

I know that i am different and I am gonna prove it.

Come on! Qiongyao.

God bless me!

I love you God for giving me everything that i have right now.

I will work even harder and appreciate for everything that I have got.

Something more in Life

Still think that there is something more in my life that i should go for...

I told my cousin that i was desperatedly missing those friends that i have made in TJ, she said

that i should give up this stupid "idea", cause someday when they have their own families, they

will forget you. I replied that i didn't care whether they miss me or not, i just missed them. That

is all.

in the following one year, i am gonna work hard, i will prove to my parents that their daughter

has the ability to live alone in Germany.

Maybe i am a bitch that i want to give up the relatively superior life here.

Whatever...

finally, i came here agian. ^^
maybe that is because more and more people know my another english blog, including someone, to whom i don't want them to know.
kinda tired
meanwhile i am deadly missing TianJin.
sometimes i don't know why i hated this city so much but i miss it so so when i left
maybe i still have not learned how to cherish things( those i have already got)
right now, i miss B. and my friends in TJ
and for B. he is very specially for me. My only foreign brother for me.
Actually, after leaving TJ, i knew deeply that i won't be so near to someone any longer.
I need to learn to grow up, which helps me faster to adjust to the real society.
wenzhou is a very beautiful city, the job i have right now may lead me to lots of $
but i still think, that is not what i really want.
there are something more... Germany
I have been planning it for such long time. and i don't want to give it up.
though lots of people say that i have already got what others maybe spend their rest life to fight for and should stay here, beginning to "enjoy" life
for me, that is not enough
i still need something more...
I want to pursuit my dream....